I’m looking for a place to live in Vienna. On Tuesday, I was told that I need to sign some paper in Vienna as soon as possible. So, the next day I made a trip there. Since I had to go there anyway, I arranged two apartment visits for that day.
I didn’t really like any of the two apartments so I’m still looking.
I have mixed feelings about all this. On one hand, I’m very excited about living in Vienna. I really like the city and I want to explore more of it. I’m looking forward for the work and all the opportunities that come with it. But finding a place to live and moving is such a hard thing to do. I’m not used to it at all and it’s pretty stressful for me every time I have to move. I thought that this time it would be different, I thought I have plenty of time to find a place and then slowly move there. But as it turns out, time flies faster than I thought. On top of that, I have look at ads in a language that I don’t know, in a country that I’m not in yet.
I’m trying to keep in mind that this is a huge step outside of my comfort zone and as such it’s to be expected that it won’t be easy. But what are the alternatives? Stay where you are? Get a comfortable job? Not only there is no such thing as a comfortable job (you always have to do things you don’t really want to), but I know that I can’t settle. It’s just not in my nature. I always want to go to the next level, to see where can I get with the skills I have. And I know that I’d rather do something that is hard but I really want to do it, than to do something that’s easy but it’s not interesting to me at all.
I’m working on getting comfortable with being uncomfortable. I don’t want to have an easy life, I don’t want to play things safe. And with this it comes naturally that there will be periods of time where things just won’t be stable or known in advance. I don’t know if I will find a good apartment soon, or if I’ll like living abroad. The best that I can do is to just be present, have goals in mind, work towards them, but don’t worry about things going wrong. I know that there are terrible things happening in the world and in comparison to that, my problems are nothing. My problems and fails should only be viewed as opportunities to learn. With that in mind, there’s really nothing to worry about. It will all be alright.