…it will be over. We finally won’t have this big thing hanging above our heads. We will be done with the school and we will be able to move onto other stuff in life. Hopefully.
I need to stop daydreaming about it. I get excited when I realize that I’m this close to finishing. But I need to keep studying for now. I don’t have a problem with overworking myself in this regard though. Maybe I’ve mentioned it before, but I’ve found out that it doesn’t matter how well you study for school exams. There’s a thin line between A and E, but you need to put in more effort. You need to go the extra mile. But in the end, at least that’s what I found out, it doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter if you had A’s, C’s, or E’s. What matters is that you passed. Maybe that’s a bad attitude but that’s what I believe. But I can’t deny that there were times where grades were super important for me. When I started on this university, I wanted to get the best grades possible, and it was for one reason. I wanted to get involved with course preparation and teaching. I knew that professors picked students that did well in their courses. So I tried to get an A in courses that I was interested in teaching. And it worked.
You need to have good grades to get past a certain threshold. You need good grades to get into a good school. And you need good grades to get noticed at the school, to make yourself visible among all the other students. But once you get at a certain point, good grades lose all their powers. Once you are in contact with the right people, you have no use for getting straight A’s.
That’s the position I’m in right now. I only want to pass the finals, no matter the grade. Sure, there is this feeling that I don’t want to disappoint somebody. But I think if somebody would judge me for not learning every single detail on a computer graphics technique from 1980’s, then it’s not telling something about me but about them.
I am way more practically oriented at this point. I want to work on actual projects. I want to finish stuff. I want to learn in order to make.
My defense is on Wednesday, February 8, 8am. Wish me luck!