I took some time off from writing the blog but now I’m back.
After coming back from USA the days have been different. One thing is that the weather took a rapid change (for worse). The days are shorter and usually there’s not much daylight anyway. It’s not very pretty to look at.
It took a while to adjust to this timezone again and the weather wasn’t helping. There have been some public holidays which is nice. I’m not gonna lie, I definitely had a little post-travel sadness. I was wishing to go back to sunny California, planning how I can do it so that we can move there. But the thing is that I kinda like Europe. I like living a little bit detached to where “it’s happening right now”. I like being the outsider, somebody who’s unknown and comes pretty much out of nowhere (but that’s a thought for a completely different article).
On September 28th it has been a year since I started blogging and I’ve managed to do it pretty regularly over the course of the one year. I’m really happy that I captured this part of my life and it’s so much fun to scroll down and look at all the photos.
However, I didn’t like that at the end it was mostly just writing about what I did that week. The idea was that I would be posting every Sunday and I wanted to make sure that I have a deadline, that I will just have to figure out something to write about. And I can say that it worked—many times I thought there’s absolutely nothing to make a blogpost out of but in the end at least one idea I was able to put down.
But my vision for the blog is different. I want to not only write about things I did, I want to think more deeply about things that are going on in my head. I want to write more in-depth articles.
I think it was fine for this one year to write about my life, and give these “weekly updates”, I wanted to start writing and that’s hard. You need to ease into that. I see this first year as exactly this, easing into writing, finding the voice, topics, getting used to publishing regularly.
Now for the future. I want to try and do two things differently:
- write more articles that focus on one topic, have a better structure, and are more in-depth, and
- write articles that capture mood, show a certain atmosphere or style of the time period, ideally put more work into the photos.
A short visit to Prague
At work I was starting to think about the approach of my first paper of the PhD. Ever since I started in spring this year, I’ve been working on things but they weren’t directly contributing to my PhD, so now I finally had the time allocated to (mostly) just that.
It took a few weeks to get into the topic but yesterday I had an idea that I think is worth trying. The problem is that there’s a lot to do to even get to the point of trying this idea out.
It however reminded me why I like working on things. There’s this idea in your head and it’s just on you to make it happen. I’m so attracted to the process of having this intense motivation, this picture of how it should look like and work, and then it’s about me making it happen. If I don’t do it, it’s not gonna happen.
It’s of course very frustrating at the same time. Life gets in a way and if you are trying to do something non-trivial it’s gonna take days if not weeks. And that’s the challenge of just keeping up, believing in that idea you initially had.
Now that I’m thinking about it, I don’t really like the pre-Christmas season. I’ve always had it associated with stress in school which gets multiplied by all the Christmas busyness.
It makes me want to make more colorful art. Something to compensate. I should do that.